It always rains at this day of the year -- And today it rained weird

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Seldom have I seen an 18th of July that's actually dry... ¬_¬

Was what I've put as today's status message on my messengers. Its funny 'coz it rhymes a little. It just came to mind as I was hauling a couple of tupperwares of macaroni salad and a tray of barbecue to work from Batangas. For what reason? Let's just say the date has something to do with the food. =..=

Not that I'm not happy to do it. I really didn't mind bringing food to the office. But I'm not that big on treating people as well. Unless I really feel like doing so. And as long as I have the budget for it. Living from pay-day to pay-day is a bad thing believe me. But today, I just feel like doing so too. It's been planned since last week anyways. And this is short of me saying thanks to everyone putting up with the crap I've been pulling in the office day in and day out.

Its just that I didn't expect today to be weird. Rain isn't quite rare during this time of the year and I've already expected today's weather and what ever will come tomorrow.

But I wasn't prepared for what happened today. It rained weird and awkward.

After almost a year, I suddenly got back in touch with a girl friend. (Don't misinterpret that. Its a friend that happens to be a girl.) Anyways, the last time we spoke was the 21st of this same month last year. And that last conversation I had with her on Y!M wasn't quite pleasant. And I kind of got it out of my system already. Or so I thought.

I guess the reason why I've been feeling queasy last night had something to do today. And the uneasiness came back the moment I stepped out of the house and hailed a trike. A feeling of impending doom.

And so when I stepped into the office, a pending friend request popped up with a familiar name. And that triggered the awkward. And I was actually considered hitting the "decline" button for some time. But I clicked "accept" regardless. And proceeded with what's scheduled to be done picking up from yesterday's leave.

I'm not sure if it was me or some ghostly force that just directed me to click on the messenger icon on the task bar and search for that friend's name. And the thought of maybe just saying "Hi." or "How've you been?" was also in my head.

Maybe I was eager, or just wanted to see for myself... If the awkwardness was right about that feeling of impending doom.

I was supposed to post something a little less cheesy instead of this entry but the weather wasn't really cooperating. And unfortunately, I'm completely blank. Not that this doesn't happen often. I have my off days and my normal shitty days. But today it just rained weird.

Should I hope that tomorrow will still be normal? But today just got weird. And thanks to the weather, its already obvious that tomorrow's going to be soaked as well.

The question now is... What do do with the rest of this supposed new year for me?

Oh and yeah, this was intentionally published on schedule.

Happy birthday to me. I guess... =..=